We held our baby, prayed over him, and said our goodbyes. But even in that moment we were filled with peace. Joy even (I wouldn’t call it happiness). Because we believe — do I dare say know? — that he’s with Jesus. He’s whole and healthy and peaceful. He awoke to the wonder of eternity […]
Our day of waiting began. Contractions started slow and small and we had a lot of time to rest and think. A lot of time to wonder about the baby we’d so soon say hello and goodbye to. We cried off and on all day, but also smiled and laughed and remembered and imagined. The […]
It’s been nine days since we gave birth to Luke. He was already gone from us in spirit by then, having died in the womb 15 weeks and 5 days after his conception. We’re surprised (but maybe shouldn’t be) that our hearts have been so peaceful during the loss of our son. We cry at […]
Awhile back I wrote about some of the funny things people say when they see a family with four young children, and how I was trying to come up with an arsenal of responses for when our newest pregnancy became obvious. Then we lost our baby, Luke, halfway through the pregnancy. We have since suffered […]
I’m not very culturally relevant these days. I can tell you what size diaper a 22-month-old would likely wear (though my daughter wears size sixes up to her armpits so I don’t have to sort between her and her almost-potty-trained, just-turned-three big brother). I know what foods have to be bribed into little tummies (pretty […]
Sometime in the next two or three months, it will be obvious to everyone that we are expecting our fifth child. (Actually, our sixth; we lost one in utero to miscarriage last fall. It’s hard to know how to navigate that fact when skipping over our little one feels like an act of forgetting, but […]
I used to love spreadsheets and charts, but I’ve mellowed out a little. At some point organization can become a counterproductive obsession … like when you spend more time designing systems and making to-do lists than you actually spend doing tasks. Ahem. But I do still like spreadsheets and charts. When I first got married, […]
I spent the last two evenings throwing brain cells in the trash by the handfuls. Kerry was away doing meaningful things, so apparently I had to provide some balance. Evening 1: The Bachelor. Oh my. Just looked up this show for the first time and watched an episode posted on ABC’s website. SO AWFUL. And […]
There’s a commercial that plays on a lot of new dvd rentals these days. Apparently I’ve been too busy making fun of it to remember what the product and company names are, but its boast is something like: “Now you can take your movies with you wherever you go!” It shows a squeaky clean American […]
“…God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentence.” – Romans 2:4 “…the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.” – Proverbs 31:26 “I led them with cords of kindness, with bands of love…” – Hosea 11:4 There’s a part of me that wishes great parenting was all about consistent responses, well-commanded respect, and wise […]
Not By Myself 